I Am Unwavering…Or At least I Try To Be (#273)

John Wooden said it best,

I am not what I ought to be, not what I want to be, not what I am going to be, but I am thankful I am better than I used to be.

I find this quote appropriate. I struggled to write about gratitude for a lot of reasons this week. I had a hard time with my mental health and justifying a post about positivity and gratitude didn’t feel right if I didn’t mean it. There wasn’t one moment that set me off, it was a feeling inside that threw off my balance.

With time, I will learn. This life is a process and as John Wooden so eloquently stated, I’m still better than I used to be.

10.04.18

Today I’m Grateful For…

  1. Late night ice cream
  2. The people I work with at UMass
  3. My Peer Mentors
  4. Staff Meeting
  5. The rain
  6. Morning stretches
  7. Gratitude
  8. Foggy mornings
  9. Sleepy time tea
  10. Leadership lessons
  11. A couple deep breaths
  12. My long run
  13. People who inspire
  14. Sharing desserts
  15. Hot showers
  16. A clear summer night
  17. Summer spent at the beach
  18. My cat, Ned
  19. Naps in Iceland
  20. A clean apartment
  21. Change in all its forms
  22. Getting stuff done
  23. On campus sushi
  24. My friend, Erika
  25. The here and now

As always, check out my first blog 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

Featured image of a small boat. I took this picture thinking of tranquility.

What We Carry (#259)

Everyone has a story. We all come from somewhere and have experiences we carry with us. As much as we try and let go, our past can sometimes feel like a piece of our identity.

The crying cheerleader gif may feel familiar for you, because it definitely does for me. What we carry and hold on to can be exhausting and draining. Although it may not be as dramatic as this, holding on to the past can take its toll.

If you felt like you needed permission – let go. If you just needed a friendly reminder – let go. Use gratitude and demonstrate appreciation for THIS MOMENT. We can’t change the past but we can be present in the here and now. Be grateful for lessons learned but know there’s no going back. Let go of what you were carrying. Free yourself and be the best version of you with gratitude.

09.07.18

Today I’m Grateful For…

  1. Time to journal
  2. Gratitude
  3. Sharing anything
  4. Drives to the cape
  5. Oldies in the car growing up
  6. Books on tape
  7. My fruits and vegetables
  8. Good health
  9. Seeing my brother
  10. A clean apartment
  11. Vinyl music with my parents
  12. Safe travels
  13. My family
  14. Recliners at the movies
  15. My fraternity brothers
  16. Crimson memories
  17. Any chance to play sports outside
  18. Trust and honesty
  19. Morning stretches
  20. The sound of the birds outside my room
  21. After class snacks
  22. Climbing trees
  23. No traffic
  24. Making new friends
  25. The here and now

As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

When Life Gets Crazy (#254)

Life often feels like a balancing act between juggling responsibilities and taking care of yourself or your family. When the stress sets in, remind yourself that you still need to take care of you.

Personally, I get frustrated hearing people tell me that “they’ll be fine” or “it’s no big deal” when they’re not taking care of themselves. Finding time for you is important. It’s not always easy but it’s important. Be grateful when you can.

09.02.18

Today I’m Grateful For…

  1. New UMass residents
  2. A night for myself to relax
  3. My good health
  4. Time to listen to music
  5. Sharing desserts and talking things out
  6. Good communication
  7. Time at the gym
  8. My family
  9. The warmth of the sun
  10. When I can help others
  11. Summer games and lawn competitions
  12. The feeling after you brush your teeth
  13. My grandparents
  14. A couple deep breaths
  15. Starting my day with tea
  16. A clean apartment and a vacuumed rug
  17. The smell of fresh cut grass
  18. Clean water and my Cambodia friends
  19. Video games nights with my cousins
  20. The trees in the horizon
  21. Knowing I’m not alone
  22. When my cat Ned gets excited about dinner
  23. The fan next to my bed
  24. My supervisor Adam
  25. This very moment

As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

Featured image of my ferocious cat taking a big yawn.

An Incredible Adventure (#213)

Every list I post, #25 on my list of gratitude is an acknowledgment of the present moment. Thoughts and fears can take me away from being present. Anxiety and uncertainty for the future meshed with a disappointment in failure from the past, remove me from the here and now. Being mindful and being present is a practice. What I’ve learned is this search for meaning, my expedition for happiness and understanding doesn’t have to span the globe. My adventure starts right here, in this moment.

“You don’t have to wait until tomorrow to find peace and joy. Breathing in, I feel alive. Breathing out, I feel at home.” – Thich Nhat Hanh

Gratitude grounds me in the here and now. Each breath that fills my lungs brings the miracle of life into my body. I’m learning I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be and the meaning to life I’ve been seeking, is what I define it to be. What a blessing it is to live another day, to see another sunrise, and to share love with the people and animals we care the most for. Our adventure starts here and you don’t have to wait for any kind of special permission to start again.

07.23.18

Today I’m Grateful For…

  1. My breath
  2. Lessons from Happiness by Thich Nhat Hanh
  3. Home cooked meals
  4. Gym sessions with Peter
  5. A clear sky full of stars
  6. The sound of train outside my window
  7. Rain, falling on my skin
  8. My friends, the people who helped me get to be exactly where I am
  9. My cat Ned, my best friend
  10. Old vinyl records
  11. Getting a good sweat at the gym
  12. CLEAN WATER! Check out my project and see how you can get involved
  13. Thunder storms
  14. Mindful eating
  15. Shared laughter
  16. A full moon and a quiet night
  17. The warmth of the sun
  18. New music from my discover weekly from Spotify
  19. Second chances
  20. Love through understanding
  21. Patience
  22. A good night’s rest
  23. Summer jijutsu lessons and learning new things
  24. My family
  25. Every moment from today, but especially this one

As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

Featured image from an old hike with my friend Lucas. So many moments in this lifetime to celebrate, how lucky am I to get to share them with people I love.

How I Deal With Anxiety (#102)

Today was a bad day for my anxiety. It was only a couple of years ago my depression and anxiety were crippling. Days without leaving my room would occur. Today I had my first anxiety attack in a long time but I dealt with it better than I have in the past. For that, I’m grateful for my growth, I’m grateful for my tools I use below, and I’m grateful for this life above everything else.

04.04.18

Today I’m Grateful for…

  1. Taking walks
  2. Calming music
  3. Going To The Gym
  4. Talking it out
  5. Laughing
  6. Time with my cat
  7. Using my tools
  8. A couple deep breaths
  9. Speaking it into my existence
  10. Signs from the Universe
  11. Counseling
  12. Learning about my anxiety and how to deal with it
  13. Practice and experience
  14. Getting enough sleep
  15. Time for self care
  16. Supportive friends
  17. Journaling
  18. My family
  19. Patience
  20. Accountability
  21. A clear night sky
  22. The sunshine
  23. Singing in the car
  24. Long runs
  25. A reminder to live in the present

As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

Featured image of a beautiful sunset over the ocean on the cape. A couple of my favorite things that bring me inner balance.

This Isn’t About Me (#96)

Yes, the list is mine and these are things I am grateful for but often times I need to remind myself, “This isn’t about me”. As I continue to make lists and strike for one list a day for an entire year, I hope to improve as I go and learn more about how to best inspire others.

It’s a work in progress but I think everything else should be too.

03.29.18

Today I’m Grateful For…

  1. When my cat listens to my commands as I train him to do tricks
  2.  A productive day in the office
  3. Favors from friends
  4. Sleeping in
  5. Frank Ocean’s Moon River Cover (https://open.spotify.com/track/41cpvQ2GyGb2BRdIRSsTqK?si=XoglJwx0Re6uCFKA52G3ag)
  6. All three Kung Fu Panda Movies
  7. Family dinners
  8. Saturday and Sunday morning Soccer
  9. Trying new things
  10. Journaling and time to process
  11. Disney songs on car rides
  12. Sigma Pi at BSU
  13. 3+ Years living in Shea Durgin
  14. Sledding down the hill with my sister in the Winter
  15. Easter at my Grandma’s
  16. Quick feedback
  17. My Peer Mentors and what they teach me
  18. Cambodia and my time serving others
  19. Meeting new people
  20. Going to Revs Games with my friends from home
  21. Patience and a few deep breaths
  22. Finding new music
  23. Soft pillows
  24. Spotify Playlists
  25. The present moment

As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

Featured image from an old hike. Don’t quite remember where or when.

There’s No Place Like Home (#76)

Home isn’t about where, it’s about who.

03.09.18

Today I’m grateful for…

  1. Hanging out with my mom
  2. Soccer practice with my friends
  3. Free concerts at stone park in the summer
  4. Ashland State Park
  5. Runs to the train station
  6. Tasty Treat after half days
  7. Finishing my first half marathon with my mom
  8. Turkey Trot mornings
  9. When the ice cream truck drove to the circle
  10. Goalie wars and pickup in the summer
  11. Clear sky’s at St. Ansem
  12. Sledding down our hill
  13. A good home and a great family
  14. My uncle dressed up as a lobster for one of my birthdays and it was so cool
  15. Woods to explore behind my house
  16. Friendly neighbors and the circle
  17. The old soccer net and learning how to curve
  18. Backyard sports with my brother
  19. The old swing set
  20. Having two siblings I love very much
  21. First day pictures with my sister
  22. Learning how to drive on my street
  23. Getting carried up the hill when I scraped my knees
  24. Being from a small town
  25. This very moment

As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

Featured image of my brother kicking around with the sky looking ferocious.