A Summer To Remember (#224)

That’s it.

I have a hard time believing it’s somehow already August 3rd. I still remember jumping up and down in my room in sheer disbelief I was offered a paid internship working in England for the summer. I called my parents immediately to share the news, quickly followed by the anxiety of organizing a trip that would take advantage of every second I spent abroad. I had plans to go to Italy and Spain, I had to think big! I found my way to Iceland, I navigated big cities in the UK, and I did it all on my own. I was enjoying this new freedom I felt…and that was all stripped when I found out I filled out my VISA incorrectly. I was sent home shortly after starting my international adventure and suddenly my world began to crash before it even had a real chance to take off.

Sitting at home was a nightmare. My positivity could only last so long. I was lucky enough to see my brother graduate high school but once the shine wore off, I couldn’t get out of my own head. I was resilient up until the point I wasn’t. I struggled to wait to return to England and when I FINALLY got back, I felt homesick and depressed. I never would have thought transitioning back would have been as hard as it was. So I buckled down, I developed a new routine for myself and made a plan. I took control of my time and I stopped making excuses for my negativity. I realized I made a mistake but there was no changing the past.

Gratitude. Gratitude is what allowed me to be present more than anything else. In another life, I was born and raised in England. I’ve wanted to visit the UK for as long as I remember wanting to travel anywhere in the world. AND, I got to be there during the World Cup and enjoy the sport’s biggest tournament with people like me. No, my summer was far from perfect but it didn’t have to be. I learned something new about myself every day abroad and found new purpose within myself. Who knows if the same would be true if everything had gone according to plan. Change is good and it may not always feel like it but it propels us in ways we could never imagine on our road to BECOMING.

I want to thank everyone who reached out over the summer, my readers, my followers, and my family for keeping me going. I could not have done any of this alone and my gratitude for you all deserves more than a line in a list. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, I am a stronger person because of the kindness and patience that has been shown to me. Thank you. This was a summer to remember.

08.03.18

Today I’m Grateful For…

  1. A couple deep breaths
  2. Learning through adversity
  3. The reliant sunshine and summer warmth
  4. Exercise as a tool for my mental health
  5. Morning hikes and catching the sunrise
  6. The World Cup and sharing it with my brother
  7. My parents and their unconditional support
  8. The smell of the ocean and the sound of the waves against the dock
  9. CLEAN WATER! Check out my project and see how you can get involved!

  10. Talking things out with my sister
  11. My summer audiobooks and the escape they provide
  12. My parents’ home cooking. I tried my best this summer but I miss theirs
  13. Getting organized and having a plan for the fall semester
  14. New perspective and clarity
  15. Time to journal and having a place to spill my thoughts
  16. Shared laughter and fun memories
  17. Change, and all it brings
  18. My comfy green sweatshirt as I wait through my 20-hour layover
  19. Good music to get me through my lows
  20. Walks through campus to work in the morning
  21. Routine and consistency to ease my mind
  22. Finding my way in a completely different country
  23. Sharing my daily gratitudes
  24. Life itself. I know I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be
  25. The here and now

 

As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

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Featured image of my favorite night in England this summer. I’ve been saving this picture and between the colors of the sunset and the moon, I’ll always have this. 

Being Open To Change (#215)

07.25.18

Today I’m Grateful For…

  1. Free pizza for lunch
  2. Handwritten notes and letters
  3. Mental health counseling
  4. Summer jijutsu lessons
  5. New music from Reddit
  6. After school cartoons
  7. Game of Thrones Sundays
  8. Swimming in the Rez
  9. Personal growth
  10. Saturday morning Liverpool matches
  11. Carpools to classes
  12. Supportive communities of people
  13. CLEAN WATER! Check out my project and see how you can get involved! Thank you to those who have already donated and helped out, it means the world.

  14. Summers as a camp counselor
  15. The change of seasons
  16. The smell of the ocean
  17. Peanut butter sandwiches and celery
  18. Time at the gym
  19. Long walk and going for runs with my mom
  20. First responders and those that give their lives to helping people
  21. A couple of deep breaths and patient reminders
  22. The promise of a new day
  23. Talking things out
  24. Change
  25. The precious present, this very moment

 

As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

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Featured image from Scotland. The beautiful landscape is something I hope to be able to revisit. Grateful for my time there.