Embracing Change (#231)

I’m grateful for gratitude. It may seem like an intuitive statement but it’s true. Gratitude is powerful and sharing it allows us to be present. Change is always happening and gratitude grounds us in the here and now.

08.10.18

Today I’m Grateful For…

  1. Ice cream trips with Mel
  2. Celebrating Mel’s birthday with her family
  3. Gratitude
  4. A clean and nice smelling car
  5. Night time stretches
  6. BSU Greek life
  7. Sharing music
  8. Honest people and good communication
  9. Chocolate dessert
  10. CLEAN WATER! Check out my project and see how you can get involved!
  11. A beer with my dad
  12. Harry Potter movie marathon
  13. Crimson and Weygand memories
  14. Heat lightning
  15. Home cooked meals and good grilling
  16. Cuddling with my cat
  17. Recliners and movies
  18. Sitting on my balcony
  19. Fresh smelling plants and flowers
  20. My Peer Mentor staff
  21. Working at UMass
  22. Summer audiobooks and book clubs
  23. The start of the Pats season
  24. Game of Thrones Sunday’s
  25. Being exactly where I am
  • As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

    Featured image from my run with my mom. Grateful for her and our time together.

    A Summer To Remember (#224)

    That’s it.

    I have a hard time believing it’s somehow already August 3rd. I still remember jumping up and down in my room in sheer disbelief I was offered a paid internship working in England for the summer. I called my parents immediately to share the news, quickly followed by the anxiety of organizing a trip that would take advantage of every second I spent abroad. I had plans to go to Italy and Spain, I had to think big! I found my way to Iceland, I navigated big cities in the UK, and I did it all on my own. I was enjoying this new freedom I felt…and that was all stripped when I found out I filled out my VISA incorrectly. I was sent home shortly after starting my international adventure and suddenly my world began to crash before it even had a real chance to take off.

    Sitting at home was a nightmare. My positivity could only last so long. I was lucky enough to see my brother graduate high school but once the shine wore off, I couldn’t get out of my own head. I was resilient up until the point I wasn’t. I struggled to wait to return to England and when I FINALLY got back, I felt homesick and depressed. I never would have thought transitioning back would have been as hard as it was. So I buckled down, I developed a new routine for myself and made a plan. I took control of my time and I stopped making excuses for my negativity. I realized I made a mistake but there was no changing the past.

    Gratitude. Gratitude is what allowed me to be present more than anything else. In another life, I was born and raised in England. I’ve wanted to visit the UK for as long as I remember wanting to travel anywhere in the world. AND, I got to be there during the World Cup and enjoy the sport’s biggest tournament with people like me. No, my summer was far from perfect but it didn’t have to be. I learned something new about myself every day abroad and found new purpose within myself. Who knows if the same would be true if everything had gone according to plan. Change is good and it may not always feel like it but it propels us in ways we could never imagine on our road to BECOMING.

    I want to thank everyone who reached out over the summer, my readers, my followers, and my family for keeping me going. I could not have done any of this alone and my gratitude for you all deserves more than a line in a list. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, I am a stronger person because of the kindness and patience that has been shown to me. Thank you. This was a summer to remember.

    08.03.18

    Today I’m Grateful For…

    1. A couple deep breaths
    2. Learning through adversity
    3. The reliant sunshine and summer warmth
    4. Exercise as a tool for my mental health
    5. Morning hikes and catching the sunrise
    6. The World Cup and sharing it with my brother
    7. My parents and their unconditional support
    8. The smell of the ocean and the sound of the waves against the dock
    9. CLEAN WATER! Check out my project and see how you can get involved!

    10. Talking things out with my sister
    11. My summer audiobooks and the escape they provide
    12. My parents’ home cooking. I tried my best this summer but I miss theirs
    13. Getting organized and having a plan for the fall semester
    14. New perspective and clarity
    15. Time to journal and having a place to spill my thoughts
    16. Shared laughter and fun memories
    17. Change, and all it brings
    18. My comfy green sweatshirt as I wait through my 20-hour layover
    19. Good music to get me through my lows
    20. Walks through campus to work in the morning
    21. Routine and consistency to ease my mind
    22. Finding my way in a completely different country
    23. Sharing my daily gratitudes
    24. Life itself. I know I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be
    25. The here and now

     

    As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

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    Featured image of my favorite night in England this summer. I’ve been saving this picture and between the colors of the sunset and the moon, I’ll always have this. 

    Opening Up (#218)

    I never thought this blog would become what it has. Being honest with myself and putting it out there for the internet to read was scary at first. I’m grateful for the support I’ve found online and the perspective I’ve gained from sharing gratitude. I look forward to my post every night and I truly am grateful for gratitude.

    07.28.18

    Today I’m Grateful For…

    1. Old Man Basketball on Wednesday’s
    2. Fresh fruit and vegetables
    3. Warm laundry
    4. Trips to the library with my mom
    5. Summer audiobooks
    6. Lawn games
    7. After school club practices
    8. Lazy weekends
    9. Orientation days
    10. Walks around Horn Pond
    11. Vibrant sunsets
    12. Shared laughter
    13. Change
    14. Ice cream trips with friends
    15. Feeling healthy
    16. Sleeping next to my cat
    17. Learning new things
    18. Piano lessons
    19. Local pizza
    20. Jijutsu lessons
    21. CLEAN WATER! Check out my project and see how you can get involved!
    22. Sunday Patriot games
    23. The smell of the ocean
    24. My headphones
    25. The precious present
  • As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

    Featured image of one of my first sunsets at UMass. Looking forward to being back.

    Sometimes It’s The Little Things (#209)

    I would be hard pressed to find divine examples of good occurring every day in my life and that’s okay. I do my best to use gratitude to give power to the little things. People who hold the door, a hot shower in the morning, for all those things and so many more, I’m grateful.

    07.19.18

    Today I’m Grateful For…

    1. My sister
    2. Getting a little help
    3. Souvenirs from friends
    4. Fresh fruit
    5. My walk to work in the morning
    6. Crimson memories
    7. A couple deep breaths
    8. Signs from the Universe
    9. Home cooked meals
    10. Liverpool matches
    11. The warmth of the sun
    12. CLEAN WATER! And those who have donated to the cause. Thank you for helping out and getting involved.
    13. Talking things out
    14. Home movies
    15. Learning from mistakes
    16. Sharing gratitude
    17. Peanut butter and celery
    18. Games after school
    19. Visiting the rez with my friends
    20. Trailers before the movie starts
    21. Continued education
    22. Jijutsu over the summer
    23. Patient people
    24. My supervisor Adam
    25. The here and now
  • As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

    Featured image of the trail behind the dam in the Scottish highlands. A cool place that I’m grateful I had time to find. Truly a little thing that led to something great.

    My Power Within (#206)

    There are a lot of people I look up to. They’re strong, self motivated, and have this innate confidence I often wish to emulate.

    I’m grateful. I didn’t always believe I had it. I didn’t always feel capable but I know over time that’s changed. My heart ache, my moments of learning, it’s helped me recognize my own power within. My power comes from my breath and is sustained with each moment of gratitude and appreciation for this life and my place within an ever changing universe.

    07.16.18

    Today I’m Grateful For…

    1. One step at a time
    2. Orientation dance parties
    3. A Long Walk To Water by Linda Sue Park. Check out my CLEAN WATER project and see how you can get involved!
    4. Punk music with Riley
    5. Time at the gym
    6. Naps after work
    7. A few deep breaths when I’m anxious
    8. The sound and smell of rain
    9. Runs through campus
    10. College football season and PAC 12 after dark
    11. My brother hearing out my crazy dreams
    12. Honesty
    13. Reclining seats at the movies
    14. My friends who encourage and support me
    15. Embracing change
    16. PC Gaming with my dad
    17. Neighborhood wiffleball games
    18. The smell of seaweed
    19. My grandparents
    20. Real instruments
    21. Spotify music and my favorite albums
    22. My fraternity
    23. Love songs and feel good music
    24. Phone calls Home
    25. The present moment

    As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

    Featured image of Loch Ness in Scotland. The day was perfect as the ferry did a small loop in the massive lake. The sun was out and the breeze felt good. The sky was blue and it was the perfect day to spot an underwater sea monster.

    200 Days Of Gratitude (#200)

    The title says it all. I believe gratitude has allowed me to be present during 2018 in ways I’ve never experienced before in my life. The blog in combination with my daily journal emphasizes everything I feel; the good, the bad, and the gratitude.With less than half a year remaining, I’ve learned some really valuable lessons from gratitude that I hope you all can apply to your own lives. Here are three that stand out to me.

    Breathing

    My background in anatomy and physiology wants to believe it’s the simple process of air entering and leaving the lungs but it’s become representative of so much more for me. Monk Nhat Hanh says in a fantastic podcast with Oprah, “Enlightenment is already there when you breath in”. Breathing for me has become the physical manifestation of patience. It calms me down and brings me clarity. The optimal mindset for finding gratitude in each moment.

    Little Moments

    I’ve learned I won’t always set personal records at the gym, I won’t be in the best mood 24/7, and the sun certainly won’t shine every day of the week. Finding little moments to appreciate and focus on helps bring new perspective to an otherwise gloomy or overwhelming day. Gratitude hasn’t eradicated my fears or completely quelled my anxiety, but it helps me see it past it at the end of the day. What this means is I get to start each and every day with a clean slate and a good attitude. Gratitude does that.

    Accepting Change

    This might be the biggest one. Change happens EVERY DAY. For me personally, I’ve been so resistant to the idea of living a different life and moving on. I loved my undergrad at BSU. I loved my life living on campus. I loved my routines and found comfort in what I hoped would last a lifetime. I’m not sure if gratitude taught me how to deal with change better, maybe that’s come with experience and age. What gratitude has taught me is how to be present when change is occurring. As we plunge further into the unknown, I know I can be grateful I’ve not only made it this far but I can appreciate how I got here. With the help of family, friends, mentors, and so many others, I know because of gratitude – I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be in an ever changing Universe. 07.10.18

    Today I’m Grateful For…

    1. A few deep breaths
    2. Sharing podcasts and audiobooks. So many lessons learned from intelligent people open to sharing their experiences in our digital / technological age.
    3. Clean water. Going to Cambodia changed my life and inspired my journey in more ways than I initially comprehended.
    4. Friends who inspire my best self. Too many of them to list here but I am constantly inspired by these people and their unconditional support keeps me going.
    5. Great music. It feels like I have headphones in all day long and because of inspired and passionate artists, my mood benefits.
    6. My cat, Ned. Although I miss him dearly this summer I know he’s waiting for me at home and the time we spend together never fails to bring me happiness.
    7. The sunshine. The warmth on my skin simply walking from my apartment to work is a little thing that makes a huge difference.
    8. Home cooked meals. Not much I have to say about just how much I love and appreciate food and sharing it with others.
    9. My family. They’ve helped me get through my toughest times and this list wouldn’t be complete without them.
    10. Frank and Holly. The first two people to really teach me about “Loving my process”.
    11. Safe travels. I’ve been to a lot of places so far in 2018 and I’m grateful I’ve made it to all them in one piece. We live in a dangerous world!
    12. Holding hands. It takes a lot for me to let others into “my space” which makes the feeling extra special for me.
    13. Time at the gym. A chance to clear my head and feel refreshed after a long day sitting in the office.
    14. Vibrant sunsets. Something about the color in the sky acts as the perfect reminder everything is going to be okay even when it doesn’t feel like it.
    15. Kind strangers. There’s a lot of negativity in the world and when people I’ve never met demonstrate patience, care, and positivity, I really appreciate that.
    16. Time to journal. Similar to the gym, it’s the perfect opportunity to clear my head. A fantastic tool for my mental health wellbeing.
    17. Learning new things. I hope this is something I can do every day of my life so I’m appreciative of when I can identify this and build those skills for the future.
    18. Colored ice pops in the summer. I mean, nothing even came close to helping beat the heat than a couple blue ice pops.
    19. Nature. I love being outside and I’m constantly in awe of our planet. The serenity of it all is definitely something to be grateful for.
    20. New experiences. This goes hand in hand with embracing change. I wouldn’t be here if I lived in my comfort zone for the rest of my life. This is where the learning happens.
    21. The sound of rain. Nothing calms me down more or help me fall asleep faster. Definitely grateful.
    22. Clean laundry. I try not to take things like this for granted when others don’t have that access. Lots of things feel like a luxury when I know others have so little.
    23. My continued education. I’ve had a great experience in grad school so far and I’m thrilled to see what my final year brings.
    24. My grandma. For reasons I don’t want to get into, I’m grateful for the memories we’ve shared and how much she loves me.
    25. The here and now. Not much left to say. Grateful just to be here.
  • As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.Featured image of one of my all time favorite places. So often my mind goes back to here when I think about gratitude and patience.

    Why I Love Music (#169)

    I’ve had a pretty tough time waiting for my VISA to process and to get back to England. Although I’m not missing much, I feel like I’m waisting this incredible opportunity. I’m grateful I was home for some pretty important family moments but this isn’t how I saw my summer going. It will place even more importance on being present and making the most of the time I have in England when I return.

    I titled this blog, “Why I Love Music” because I think it’s been an important piece of my sanity. I’m someone who will over-analyze a situation without any prompting. My brain is CONSTANTLY processing information and I am conscious of my surroundings almost to a fault. Music not only is something I love to just listen to and enjoy, but it can certainly help keep my thoughts positive too.

    This is a list of 25 songs that make me happy and at peace.

    Grateful they exist, grateful I find meaning in them, and I’m grateful I can share them with others who may feel the same.

    06.10.18

    Today I’m Grateful For…

    1. The Days That Are To Come – John Vincent III
    2. Yellow Lights – Harry Hudson
    3. I Hear Your Song, Sweetness – George Taylor
    4. Grows Old – Thirdstory
    5. I Need A Forest Fire – James Blake / Bon Iver
    6. Downtown – Majical Cloudz
    7. Anchor – Novo Amor
    8. Things Will Get Better – Vian Izak
    9. Cherry Wine – Hozier
    10. Rut – The Killers
    11. Roll Like Thunder – Jake Wells
    12. Animals & Angels – Joy Oladokun
    13. Pink + White – Frank Ocean
    14. Rise – Jason Mraz
    15. JOYFUL – X Ambassadors
    16. St. Ides – Macklemore & Ryan Lewis
    17. Reckless Lover – Handsome Ghost
    18. You Can’t Rush Your Healing – Trevor Hall
    19. The Adventure – Angels & Airwaves
    20. I’ll Stay (Carla’s Song) – Matt Stinton
    21. Hope – Honeywater
    22. Patience – The Lumineers
    23. Bruises – Lewis Capaldi
    24. Underground – Cody Fry
    25. Treasure Chest – The Corcoran Brothers

    Trust me, picking JUST 25 songs was hard enough but if you like my music and are interested in more, check out my profile here.

    As always, check out my first blog, 25 Things I’m Grateful For (#1) to know why I’m writing this list and why I want you to start yours.

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    A featured image I’ve used before but a perfect way to end my day. Listening to music and watching the sunset always calmed me down and will be something I am always grateful for when thinking about this past year.